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Puck smiled when everyone got settles in front of the tv as Lily watched one of her favorite shows. Puck had no idea what the hell it was but he didn’t mind, he liked to see Lily get excited over small things like that. Puck looked over at Rachel with a soft smile. “it’s perfect baby” he whispered leaning in and kissing her cheek softly. Puck leaned back and began to eat his pasta happily. He liked this, he liked his family. It made him feel like he was part of something special.
After eating puck picked everything up and put it in the dishwasher after walking back into the living room. “Bed time” He said with a smile. Lily whined and jumped into Rachel’s lap. “noooooo!” She said nuzzling into her neck. Puck laughed and looked at Rachel. “Well then i guess we can’t bring her to tumbling class tomorrow Rach, She wont go to sleep” he said pretending to sigh and shrugging his shoulders. The words alone got Lily’s attention looking up at Rachel for conformation.
Lily hated bed time. She was always so full of energy and unless she had a long day. It took her a long time to go to sleep. Rachel wraps her arms around her tightly but not too tight. “Daddy is right, Lil. Only girls that go to sleep on time get to go to tumbling. You won’t learn as well and you could get hurt if you go and you are too tired. You don’t want to get hurt, do you? I know that daddy and I don’t want you too. We love you way too much to want to see that happen.” She kisses her forehead as Lily scrambled out of her lap and runs for her room. “Bed time, bed time, bed time.” She said over and over as Rachel took Noah’s hand and lead him to Lily’s room so they could help her into her pj’s and tuck her in.
“You’re good at that, baby.” Rachel says, pressing a chaste kiss to his lips as she helps Lily into her tinkerball night gown.
Puck smiled when Rachel began to laugh and giggle in his arms getting a reaction out of Lily. It was so damn cute the way she would buckle over and slap his chest. Puck eventually let her go with a smile raising an eyebrow at her words. “Oh?” he said as he lifted her in the air and began to pepper her with hundreds of kisses before setting her down so she could continue with supper.
Puck took Lily’s and his own plate looking over at the small girl when Rachel asked the question. “Wivin room!” Lily said excitedly as she ran over to the living room. Puck smiled walking Rachel over there putting Lily’s pasta in front of her. She had a small chair only for her. It was a miniature fuzzy pink chair with cinderella on it. “Here baby, you eat slowly” he said as he handed her a plastic fork before sitting down and waiting for Rachel to eat.
“Yeah oh!” She doesn’t have time to do anymore threatening cause he has her up in the air with one arm, while the other is still securely around Lily. She would be afraid if it were anyone else, but she trusted Noah, more than anyone in the world. “It’s going to be even worse now, Puckerman.” Rachel sticks her tongue out at him as he sets her down, thankful for his playful assaults to stop. It only made her want more of him and it wasn’t possible now.
“The living room sounds good.” Rachel nods, thanking Noah as he grabbed his and Lily’s plate. She gets hers together before following them in, smiling as Lily sat in her favorite chair. It was so much bigger than her but so small at the same time. Rachel sits down beside Noah and smiles. “Eat.” She says softly, starting to eat her own food at her usual slow pace. She was always last to eat. “Is it okay?”
Puck smiled when she blushed. “mm I wouldn’t say that” he said with a smile as he wrapped his other arm around her waist and peppered kissed up her neck. Puck thought that Rachel was extremely strong for staying with Lily even though everyone told her not too. When she told him she’d give him a massage Puck smirked a little bit. “Maybe you could give me one tonight? I’ll promise to return the favor” he said in a seemingly innocent voice because Lily was around. But he knew that Rachel would definitely catch on to his not so innocent thoughts.
When she walked away to call Sam Puck furrowed his eyebrows. “alright baby thank you” he said as he looked at Lily who had began to play with his mohawk. “And what do you think you’re doing missy?” he asked playfully setting her on the counter. “Paying with your hair!” She said giggling happily. Puck smiled and began to poke her sides effectively getting a couple of giggles and squeals out of the girl. “Daddyy!” she giggled nuzzling into his chest happily. Puck just couldn’t get enough of the tiny girl.
When Rachel came back Puck smiled pulling her in between him and Lily. “Thank you” He said as he kissed the back of her neck softly. “Do you know that mommy’s ticklish too?” He said as he trapped Rachel against his chest so she couldn’t run off. “Do you want to see?” He asked his small daughter. When Lily clapped and nodded puck began to tickle the woman in his arms with a smile on his face. He loved Rachel’s laugh. It was so damn cute.
Rachel shakes her head, grinning at him. “You don’t need to thank me Noah. I don’t like sharing you, so really you’re doing us a favor.” His mouth feels good even though its light and she sighs contently, quickly moving away as he mentions her being tickling. She sees Lily’s eyes brighten as Noah pulls her in and keeping her still so she couldn’t get loose. Rachel pouts before he’s tickling her furiously. Her cheeks are red instantly and she’s giggling madly which eggs Lily on. She’s laughing harder at Rachel than she does when she’s the one at Noah’s hands.
Rachel finally makes her way out of his grasp and she doubles over slightly, trying to catch her breath while she continues to laugh. “Pay back Noah. One day it will come for you and it will be when you least expect it. I promise, you won’t even know what to do with yourself.” She winks in his direction before finishing up dinner and serving onto each of their plates. “Where are we sitting tonight guys?” She grins, cheeks still pink.
Puck smiled a little when She told him that he was amazing. “so are you” he said in a gentle voice leaning in and kissing her cheek. Even if Rachel brought his father into their home Puck knew that she had his best interest at heart. he knew that she had no idea what happened in the past mostly because Puck never really liked to talk about it. He thought that if you talked about your monsters it made them real. That wasn’t something puck wanted.
When Lily began to ask about her class Puck laughed a little bit. “of course i’ll come to your class tomorrow. Me and Mommy will be right there watching” he said with a smile letting lily lay her head on his shoulder just to relax a little bit. Puck watched as Rachel cooked smiling a little bit. “Yeah i did, i had a great time just relaxing” he admitted truthfully.
When she asked about work lily poked her head out. “noo” She whined and pouted. “Stay home daddy, pwease?” She begged with her cute little eyes. “uhm, I guess I could take a day off, I’ll have to call Sam though” He said as he put their noses together. Lily giggled happily. “yaaay!” She said as she cupped his face.
Rachel blushes slightly, “But I’m nowhere near as strong.” She enforces, before turning her attention back to the sauce and the pasta. She knew that Noah had started cooking but he could use the break and it was obvious he was very content with Lily in his arms. It made her happy, how well they got on. It was absolutely adorable to watch and she hoped they continued to be that close, because they would always need each other. Rachel still didn’t see her importance but Noah was helping her more and more with it, when he didn’t even know. “I’m glad Noah. You definitely deserved a break. Maybe on your next day all alone, you can get a massage or something, or I could even give you one.” She smiles softly, before watching as Lily pouts and tells Noah to stay home.
“If you want Noah. I can call him for you. So you can keep holding her and finish your time relaxing. The food should be ready soon.” She leans up and kisses his cheek, before going to call Sam, without even waiting for his answer. It was probably crossing boundaries but she didn’t think it would be too big of a deal. After hanging up with Sam she comes back, grinning, going to strain the pasta and noodles. “Daddy can stay home, work is slow tonight I guess.”
Puck began to pull out some tomato sauce for pasta when Rachel wrapped her arms around his waist helping him relax a little. It wasn’t her fault, after what happened with her dads he knew she was only trying to do the same. “Yeah, you deserve to know” he said as he put the two can’s in a pot along with a couple of spices so it would cook for a while.
“When I was young, he lived with me and my mom. When he came home his favorite activity was beating on me and scaring my little sister. I was 7 when he broke my arm” he said as he looked at rachel and then back down. “My mom would scream and yell and tell him to leave each time. Eventually he hit her too. That’s when I lost it. I came home with a baseball bat. I was 10.” he added running a hand through his mohawk.
He couldn’t remember the last time he’d told anyone this. It was hard, it made him feel alienated. “I told him if he didn’t leave i’d beat him so hard that-” He stopped when Lilly walked into the room and gave her a soft smile. “He got mad and the rest i’d rather not say” he said as he looked at Lily.
“hi baby i’m sorry” he said as he picked her up. She pushed her face into her dad’s neck and sighed. “You are my sunshine, my only sunshine you make me happy when skies are grey, you’ll never know how, much i love you. So please don’t take my sunshine away” He sang in a soft voice making Lily giggle.
Rachel sighs a breath of relief when he doesn’t’ pull her away or yell at her. It’s not like she thinks he is known for doing that or the scene out in the living room had changed her sight of him. She just knew she’d messed up and wouldn’t blame him for being upset with her. “Thank you Noah. Whenever you’re ready to tell me and in little pieces if you want, I don’t want to push you into sharing details about your life you aren’t ready to tell.” Rachel knows she had done that with Shelby. It makes her feel good that he trusts her so much.
She pulls away and watches as he focuses on the sauce, before he begins speaking. Rachel doesn’t say anything, instead she listens, horrified that these things ever happened to him and completely understanding his reaction and protective nature. It also explained why he had such a hard shell and tough exterior. Rachel just thinks he is so strong and inspiring. She doesn’t think he wants to hear that though. He never did take praise well.
“You’re amazing.” Rachel breathes out as he lifts Lily and begins to sing to her. Rachel doesn’t want to interrupt their moment and grabs the pasta from the cupboard and begins boiling the water. Lily is content in Noah’s arms, bouncing happily. “You coming with me tomorrow to tumbling, daddy? I have to show you all my new stuff.” She’d told him about mastering her latest trick.
“Did you at least enjoy your day to yourself, Noah? Was it quiet and everything you wanted? What time do you have to go in tonight?”
Puck of course worked at night, so when Rachel woke him up that morning to say goodbye to Lily and her he knew he’d have the house to himself. He liked it, having the house to himself sometimes. Of course he loved being with Rachel and Lily, he loved them to death, but being by himself gave him the chance to just relax. He had his jeans and a loose shirt on playing his guitar most of the day completely oblivious of what was to come.
When he heard Rachel’s voice and Lily running into his arms Puck smiled. “You did? You’re so good!” He said excitedly letting Lily press her nose against his pulling her close into his arms. “Are you sure it’s my daddy and not one of mommy’s?” He asked furrowing his eyebrows. But when he heard that familiar voice Puck felt his jaw tense. “Hello Jr” The man said making anger surge through his veins.
“Baby why don’t you go to your room daddy has something to do” He said as he let the girl run off. “Rachel you go too” he said as he stood up malicious anger showing behind the man’s face. “What’re you doing with my grandaughter? Didn’t want to tell your old man?” He asked making Puck’s fist clench roughly. “If you ever show your face around here again I swear i’ll call the police” he growled in a rough voice. “You can’t do that, she’s mine too” He said pointing towards Lily’s room.
Puck laughed dryly pinning his father up against the wall “Leave. Now. She will never be yours. You are not my father you are nothing. Now get out” he growled in a low voice making sure Rachel was behind him. His father seemed like he could have an anurism right then and there. The man pushed puck off roughly showing his fist to his son. “what are you going to do Noah? You gonna hit me? Not like you haven’t done it before” he said in a growl. He hated that his father had his name. It was why he never used it.
Puck’s father pulled away opening the door and looking back at his son. “You are a disgrace to the puckerman name” He said as he stormed off. Puck rolled his eyes slamming the door causing lily to whine. “Daddy?” She asked in a small voice. “come here baby,” puck said as he picked her up and wiped up the small tears across her cheek. “Where’s papa?” She asked looking at Rachel. Puck looked down, “don’t call him that baby, he went home. Why don’t you go clean up i’ll make us something to eat” he said with a smile letting her go. Puck didn’t say anything, he simply walked into the kitchen to look for what he could make.
Rachel didn’t understand the tone that was being passed by both Noah and his father. She knew that they had a troubled past, but she thought this reuniting would do them good. She didn’t think they’d end up being so cross. When Lily is instructed to go to her room, Rachel watches her scurry off, before she steps back, still in the room. She just wanted to make sure everything was alright. The banter between them made no sense and she gasps quietly when her Noah pins his father against the wall. None of this made sense. But she feels guilty for inviting him and interacting with him in the first place.
“You need to calm down.” She tries to interject, but she isn’t heard and the fighting continues. Rachel catches on to a few words here and there but nothing is making sense. The only thing she can put together is that something terrible had happened between the two and she knows it had to of been his dad, because she knew her Noah.
“Lily, come here baby.” Rachel lifts her up, doing her best to comfort the little girl. It seems she was a nosy little girl and watched the whole interaction as well. “It’s okay, sweetie. You’re okay and daddy is okay. Why don’t you go wash up like he said and we’ll have dinner.” Lily nuzzles her nose against Rachel’s neck until she calms down, before making her way to the bathroom to wash her hands.
Rachel makes her way to the kitchen and without saying anything, wraps her arms around Noah’s waist. “Are you going to tell me what that was about?” She asks softly.
Things between her and Noah had been progressing quickly and she was more than happy about all the decisions they’d been making for themselves. It helped that Lily was so adjustable and happy. She was still having her nightmares but they weren’t as frequent or as bad. She’d fall back to sleep easily after a song or a few minutes of rubbing her back. They were lucky to have her in their lives and to be able to take care of her. Rachel was no longer nervous that Noah was going to take her away. They were in this together and for the long haul. She knew that for sure.
She had a day off finally and she gave Noah the apartment to himself while she took Lily to preschool and her tumbling class. Rachel had a few errands to run and while she went to a few stores in time square, she realized one man was going to every place she would. Taking a breath, she turned on her heels. “Yes? Is there a reason for your following me?”
After a long conversation about manners and stalkers she finds out it is Noah SR. Noah’s father. She isn’t sure how he had found her but she thinks this is a positive thing. Noah could use his dad. She has him come with her to get Lily, before they are on their way back to the apartment.
“Noah I have a guest for you.” She calls out as Lily makes a run to the living room, jumping on his lap. “Daddy daddy daddy. I did my move today.” She squeals happily, before cupping his face and pressing her nose to his. “Your daddy is here too. Say hi?”
Puck looked up at her when she cupped his face and told him that it was ok. The smile on her face made him smile a little more. She was so sweet to him, he didn’t know what he did to deserve a girl like her. He pulled her against him and kissed her back. “can we just..sleep?” he asked as he let his had run up and down her delicate back. “I don’t know but i just want to hold you for tonight” he whispered in a gentle voice. Puck let his fingers run slowly down her back wanting nothing more than to feel her relax against him.
“Yeah, baby. We can just sleep. I have no problem just sleeping.” Rachel feels the chills run up her spine as he ran his hands over her back. “I want to hold you too, come on.” She kissed him softly and settled beside him, pulling the covers up and over their bodies. “Sleep, relax, and just think positive Noah.” Rachel closes her eyes, just letting her thoughts be surrounded with him and Lily. Nothing else mattered. It wasn’t long until she was fast asleep in his arms, more relaxed then she’d ever been.
Puck looked down when she began to talk. “She didn’t love me, she just wanted a younger guy she could have sex with” he said in a small voice. He felt the familiar heart ache run through his chest making him angry. He didn’t want to talk about this. “Rachel don’t, if i was so perfect she wouldn’t have left, and neither would my dad” he whispered looking down and into her beautiful brown eyes. “i wish i would have met you first” he added in a small voice. When she said she loved him the heart ache seemed to lessen a little bit. “i love you too” he said in a soft voice pulling her close against him and just holding her.
“She’s not worth it, Noah. She’s never been worth it. Don’t think about her. Think about what you have now because of her.” Rachel is talking about Lily but maybe herself too. If this hadn’t happened, they wouldn’t be in this situation right now. “She was the one that was afraid. People do crazy things when they are scared.” She cups his cheek at the mention of his dad, wanting to ask about him too, but not wanting to push him right now. He was already so upset. “No, don’t say that, okay? Things wouldn’t be the same if you’d met me first.” The notion makes her smile though. She sighs contently when he says it back and kisses him lovingly as she pulls him as close as he could be.
